I am as miss "galau"

ok, 'galau' here has the same meaning as broken heart, so this entry's title means : i'm a broken-hearted girl.
ya, broken heart,.
that's what i feel now.
i dont know what should i do with this feelin'.
it hurts me so badly.


i always cry when i remember the moments when we chew the fat..
the moments that we've been through.
i can remember it exactly..
the way he smiles, the way he looks at me, the way he ties or puts off his shoes,
the way he types a text to me.
i absolutely remember everything about you i know.

but so what?
is there any effect on you?

NOTHING.

cuz you've never got any feeling 2 me, right?


you still have a special feelin w/ your EX!
and i totally can't blame you bcuz of that!

stress, i need a brainstorm

i'm totally stress now.
no one extremely know who i am.
no one surely understand what i feel.

do u know what's my prob?

alright, that's about money,

i know money can't buy everything,
but i really need it now.
moreover, it's bcuz of my fault!

i REALLY need A LOT OF MONEY now,,
it's about 20 millions rupiah.

pls, help me....
i need it...
if you have any idea 2 help me,
pls put your comment @ this entry..
:(

You Belong With Me

You're on the phone with your girlfriend, she's upset
She's going off about something that you said
'Cause she doesn't get your humor like I do

I'm in the room, it's a typical Tuesday night
I'm listening to the kind of music she doesn't like
And she'll never know your story like I do

But she wears short skirts, I wear T-shirts
She's Cheer Captain and I'm on the bleachers
Dreaming about the day when you wake up and find
That what you're looking for has been here the whole time

If you could see that I'm the one who understands you
Been here all along, so why can't you see?
You, you belong with me, you belong with me

Walking the streets with you and your worn-out jeans
I can't help thinking this is how it ought to be
Laughing on a park bench, thinking to myself
Hey, isn't this easy?

And you've got a smile that could light up this whole town
I haven't seen it in a while since she brought you down
You say you're fine, I know you better than that
Hey, what ya doing with a girl like that?

She wears high heels, I wear sneakers
She's Cheer Captain and I'm on the bleachers
Dreaming about the day when you wake up and find
That what you're looking for has been here the whole time

If you could see that I'm the one who understands you
Been here all along, so why can't you see?
You belong with me

Standing by and waiting at your back door
All this time how could you not know?
Baby, you belong with me, you belong with me

Oh, I remember you driving to my house in the middle of the night
I'm the one who makes you laugh when you know you're 'bout to cry
And I know your favorite songs and you tell me 'bout your dreams
Think I know where you belong, think I know it's with me

Can't you see that I'm the one who understands you?
Been here all along, so why can't you see?
You belong with me

Standing by and waiting at your back door
All this time, how could you not know?
Baby, you belong with me, you belong with me

You belong with me
Have you ever thought just maybe
You belong with me?
You belong with me

Broken-hearted Girl lyrics

You’re everything I thought you never were
And nothing like I thought you could’ve been
But still you live inside of me
So tell me how is that?

You’re the only one I wish I could forget
The only one I’d love enough to not forgive
And though you break my heart, you’re the only one
And though there are times when I hate you
Cause I can’t erase
The times that you hurt me
And put tears on my face
And even now while I hate you
It pains me to say
I know I’ll be there at the end of the day

I don’t wanna be without you babe
I don’t want a broken heart
Don’t wanna take a breath with out you babe
I don’t wanna play that part
I know that I love you
But let me just say
I don’t want to love you in no kind of way no no
I don’t want a broken heart
And I don’t wanna play the broken-hearted girl...No...No
No broken-hearted girl
I’m no broken-hearted girl

Something that I feel I need to say
But up to now I’ve always been afraid
That you would never come around
And still I want to put this out
You say you’ve got the most respect for me
But sometimes I feel you’re not deserving me
And still you’re in my heart
But you’re the only one and yes
There are times when I hate you

But I don’t complain
Cause I’ve been afraid that you would've walk away
Oh but now I don’t hate you
I’m happy to say
That I will be there at the end of the day

I don’t wanna be without you babe
I don’t want a broken heart
Don’t wanna take a breath with out you babe
I don’t wanna play that part
I know that I love you
But let me just say
I don’t want to love you in no kind of way no no
I don’t want a broken heart
And I don’t wanna play the broken-hearted girl...No…No
No broken-hearted girl

Now I’m at a place I thought I’d never be…Oooo
I’m living in a world that’s all about you and me…yeah
Ain't gotta be afraid my broken heart is free
To spread my wings and fly away
Away With you
yeah yeah yeah, ohh ohh ohh

I don’t wanna be without my baby
I don’t wanna a broken heart
Don’t want to take a breath with out my baby
I don’t wanna play that part
I know that I love you
But let me just say
I don’t want to love you in no kind of way..No..No
I don’t want a broken heart
I don’t wanna play the broken-hearted girl..No..No..
No broken-hearted girl
Broken-hearted girl No…no…
No broken-hearted girl
No broken-hearted girl

curhat gue sesi 1

sumpah belakangan ini ngerasa tua  banget,

iya tau sih,

emang udah 17 (mendekati 18 sih, sebenarnya...  : D )

tapi toh baru 17-18 kan?

itu kan masih REMAJA,

kok ngerasa tua banget ya?

gini nih, ceritanya...

kemaren dia ngesms pake kata2 "ulun" dan "pian"..

yah, dalam bahasa banjar kata2 ulun dan pian itu kata2 yg sopan.. ,

biasanya banyak digunakan sama orang2 yang pacaran...

supaya lebih mesra.. ciyeee...

*gak nyambung*

hahaha

terus esoknya, temen yang lebih muda, sebenarnya sih mantannya temen, 

terus akrab deh, kadang aku curhat ke dia, kadang dia curhat ke aku..

(meskipun lebih banyak dia yang curhatnya..hahaha)

*jangan mikir macam2 loh, dia ini cewek, bukan orang yang aku suka.. >.< *

terus dia nge-sms manggil aku kakak.,.

hello..???

gue gak setua itu kali...

yah, kita emang beda usia,

tapi gak jauh2 juga kali...

jadi aku lebih mending dipanggil nama aja deh..

meskipun aku pengen dihormati juga sebagai orang yang lebih tua dari mereka berdua,

tapi gak perlu deh kayaknya manggil aku kakak...

hahahaha

sekian dulu deh curhat gue season 1 nii...

ntar (mungkin) bakal ada curhat gue season 2,3,4,5 dst...

hahahaha

goodbye!

getting closer

he's getting closer to me when i wanna forget him,
it makes me so confused,
what shoukl i do?
should i move on or try to be more patient and wishing that he'll love me someday?


and i've thought many things, 
i've considered the good sides n the bad sides,
and i've decided to forget him,
but if then he gets a feeling to me,
maybe i'll come back to him and give him a chance,...

my thoughts

ok, i think i should stop remember anything about him,
not should, it's   A MUST. 
but  

how can i forget him while everything around me seems to remind me about him????

everything i see, it seems to always make me remember him.
everywhere i walk, what i see is him..
whenever i try to forget him, 
he always comes back, plays on my mind, comes to my dream...
as i dreamed last nite,
i see you in my dream,
then i ask my heart,

why is the dream always better than the reality?

can you tell me why?