curhat gue sesi 1

sumpah belakangan ini ngerasa tua  banget,

iya tau sih,

emang udah 17 (mendekati 18 sih, sebenarnya...  : D )

tapi toh baru 17-18 kan?

itu kan masih REMAJA,

kok ngerasa tua banget ya?

gini nih, ceritanya...

kemaren dia ngesms pake kata2 "ulun" dan "pian"..

yah, dalam bahasa banjar kata2 ulun dan pian itu kata2 yg sopan.. ,

biasanya banyak digunakan sama orang2 yang pacaran...

supaya lebih mesra.. ciyeee...

*gak nyambung*

hahaha

terus esoknya, temen yang lebih muda, sebenarnya sih mantannya temen, 

terus akrab deh, kadang aku curhat ke dia, kadang dia curhat ke aku..

(meskipun lebih banyak dia yang curhatnya..hahaha)

*jangan mikir macam2 loh, dia ini cewek, bukan orang yang aku suka.. >.< *

terus dia nge-sms manggil aku kakak.,.

hello..???

gue gak setua itu kali...

yah, kita emang beda usia,

tapi gak jauh2 juga kali...

jadi aku lebih mending dipanggil nama aja deh..

meskipun aku pengen dihormati juga sebagai orang yang lebih tua dari mereka berdua,

tapi gak perlu deh kayaknya manggil aku kakak...

hahahaha

sekian dulu deh curhat gue season 1 nii...

ntar (mungkin) bakal ada curhat gue season 2,3,4,5 dst...

hahahaha

goodbye!

getting closer

he's getting closer to me when i wanna forget him,
it makes me so confused,
what shoukl i do?
should i move on or try to be more patient and wishing that he'll love me someday?


and i've thought many things, 
i've considered the good sides n the bad sides,
and i've decided to forget him,
but if then he gets a feeling to me,
maybe i'll come back to him and give him a chance,...

my thoughts

ok, i think i should stop remember anything about him,
not should, it's   A MUST. 
but  

how can i forget him while everything around me seems to remind me about him????

everything i see, it seems to always make me remember him.
everywhere i walk, what i see is him..
whenever i try to forget him, 
he always comes back, plays on my mind, comes to my dream...
as i dreamed last nite,
i see you in my dream,
then i ask my heart,

why is the dream always better than the reality?

can you tell me why?

quotes that reflect my feelings to him

• Did you ever fall for someone you know you shouldn't?
  Try hard to fight your feelings, but you just couldn't?
  You fall deeper with each passing day,
  But try to hide it in every possible way.
  He's only a friend, and nothing else--
  That's the lie you keeping telling yourself.
  You keep on saying he's just a bud,
  But deep inside, you're falling in love.
  You get so giddy when you meet his eyes,
  But keep reminding yourself it isn't right.
  A simple glance turns into a stare,
  But you pretend that you don't care.
  It's "not right" for you two to be.
  Is that why you hide it so no one can see?
  But how long will you pretend?
  Keep lying that he's just a friend?
  Perhaps your feelings you can never show.
  Perhaps it's "wrong" for him to know.
  Your friendship can't be risked over this,
  So being his girl is an impossible wish... 

• Someday you'll know, that I was the one for you.

• I'm not supposed to love you
  I'm not supposed to care
  I'm not supposed to live my life
  Wishing you were there
  I'm not supposed to wonder
  Where you are or what you do
  I'm sorry, I can't help myself
  cause I'm in love with you!  

• My friends are always telling
  me to move on, to give up.
  But why? Why should I?
  They don't see you the way that I see you.
  They don't look into your eyes and see the world.
  Why would they understand?
  They can't possibly imagine what
  it means to look at your best friend
  and see all their hopes and dreams come true.
  I wish for once, just once,
  they could walk a mile in my shoes.
  But they wouldn't need to walk that far,
  they would just take one step and suddenly,
  they would take back every bit of
  'getting over you' advice they had
  ever given me and realize you're my life,
  you were meant for me,
  and that moving on or giving up is simply not an option.

• I really think there's a reason that I like him so much.
  Like something is telling me not to let him go.
  Every time I follow my heart... it leads me to him.
  I mean... what other explanation is there.
  Why is it that he is all I can think about?
  Why is it that no matter how upset I am...
  I see him and I can't help but smile?
  Why is it that when he smiles at me...
  I get that feeling in my stomach?
  And even when he'd broken my heart,
  and hurt me as much as anyone could ever hurt me...
  when he lied to me... and I hated him...
  why then did I still feel those same feelings?
  Answer me that, and then I'll tell you why I let him hurt me so much.  

• Should I Smile Because You're My Friend
  Or Cry Because Thats All We'll Ever Be?

• Forget The Times You Walked By,
  Forget The Times You've Made Me Cry,
  Forget The Time You Held My Hand,
  Forget The Sweet Things If I Can,
  I Can No Longer Pretend
  , I Have To Remember Now That You're Just A Friend

• They say loving you is my biggest mistake
  but how can it be so wrong if it feels so right?
  If ever I made a mistake,
  its not that I love you,
  its thinking that someday you'll love me too.. 

definiton of LOVE

Okay, anyone here knows what does love mean?

can you tell me what love means exactly?

is it true that love means as nat king cole said on their song :

L is for the way you look at me
O is for the only one I see
V is very, very extraordinary
E is even more than anyone that you adore and

Love is all that I can give to you
Love is more than just a game for two
Two in love can make it
Take my heart and please don't break it
Love was made for me and you

but honestly, i dont think so..

cuz what i know that love is tears, love is sad, love is a fool thing,

love is not more than a ridiculous, silly, fool thing,

not more.

LOVE IS TOTALLY SUCKS.

totally, absolutely, n extremely SUCKS.

u know why i said like this?

cuz whenever i fall in love with someone, my heart would break!

break again, crush another boy, n break again!

it really hurts me so badly.

so, someone pls tell me 

WHAT DOES L.O.V.E MEAN??